Happy Halloween!

Boo!

Smiley Girl is Ready for Baseball!

I love when I hear her fussing in her crib and I go in to check on her and she just looks up and smiles at me as if to say "Hey Mamma! I was just missing you, so I wanted you to come in and look at me!"










This is just a bonus picture because her daddy is a Mets fan, and I have better taste than that!

Bring Rayna Home!

Rayna has been found! Thank you to anyone that passed this information on.

Seeing Ghosts

My dad passed away last week after a very long battle with Alzheimer's Disease. It was very much for the best, as he'd been suffering for at least 10 years. A friend said to me that he was able to go because my sister and I had both been recently blessed with the babies we'd tried so hard and so long to have. I actually had a feeling when I had B that it would finally be his time to leave us. Little did I know how true that would be just 10 weeks later. It makes me very sad that my father had three grandchildren that he not even never met, but never even knew he had.

The last three nights while I was feeding B in the middle of the night, she suddenly went from very sleepy to wide awake, turning her head up and to the left, eyes looking towards the ceiling, and began to giggle. The giggling went on for minutes at a time. I hadn't said it out loud to anyone, but I've been thinking that it's my dad looking down at her and making her laugh. I mentioned it to the husband last night and he said "she's talking to ghosts." Then I mentioned it to my mom today and she said that she was looking at ghosts. I'm sure they're both thinking the same as me.

Just call me "Baldy"

The post-partum hair loss has begun! Between hair loss from my anemia and this, I'm going to be balder than the hubby before the end of the year.

6 weeks old!

And I am so freaking tired! I guess I cant complain much though. She does let me sleep about 6 hours at night, although they're not uninterrupted. Oh well. She's cute, so I guess I'll keep her.

Some days she's good and calm and quiet for 2-3 hours at a time, and only needs to eat every 4 hours (my wish for daytime), and others she wants to just graze all day long and never stops crying. Just when she seems to have a predictable pattern, she changes it.

Her looks change every day, too. It's hard to say who she looks like because both the husband and I have red hair and green eyes. I think she has my nose and lips. Hard to say, though.

"She has red hair!"

In a nutshell... I went in for an induction on Tuesday (8/4/09) afternoon, but I was already in mild labor so I couldn't actually use the cervidil I was supposed to. 46 hours, cervidil, cytotec, an epidural, morphine, and an emergency c-section later, Bridget Catherine joined us at 2:09pm on Thursday, August 8th, weighing in at 6 lbs., 9 ounces, and 19 inches. As they took her out, one of the nurses said, "She has red hair!" and she certainly does.

We are completely in love, and she was completely worth the wait. For those of you that stop by here and have been on a similar journey - it's so, so very worth every drug, needle stick, doctor's visit, unanswered question, and moment of misery along the way. If you're expecting - enjoy it. Despite the scares and issues, I loved being pregnant. And now, despite the hell I went through to get her here, and the pain I'm still in (OMG the swelling I still have from all those hours on IV fluid!), I love this little bundle of joy more than I ever could have imagined.